Friday, August 29, 2008
BlissQuest: Slowing Down, Changing Seasons, & Remembering
Listening to: In this, you can appreciate her voice more than usual.
Today's Bliss: My writing space is cleaner. I was being threatened by mountains of papers! Little bits of paper, large pieces of paper, all covered with ideas and imperatives and imaginings.
The weather is changing -- or at least, it momentarily seems as if it is. Some very fall-like temperatures with wind and gray sky. My joints feel the cool wet, and they creak, as they do at the transition times, those few weeks when summer cannot decide to give over to fall or spring cannot let go of winter.
And maybe this weather is an explanation for my mood.
I am beginning to look forward to the shutting of the windows and doors. The better to hear my own thoughts.
I am beginning to look forward to putting the garden to bed. The easier it will be to rest my own bones.
I am beginning to look forward to the stillness that comes after a foot of snow blankets the earth. The deeper I will be able to enter my heart.
But I wonder why it takes fall and winter for this to be the case?
Why can't I remember all year long that it is in doing things deliberately that I find peace and balance?
Summer makes me frenetic. Like the sun, I become too intense and focused on doing. Like thunder storms, I am all energy and movement.
Then, suddenly (or not), it is September, and I wonder why I feel so out of sorts. I start craving a vacation. A going away and being different.
When really, I need to stay where I am, sit still, and be different right here.
I need to stop doing things out of some sense of obligation. Which is where I end up every summer -- saying yes to every invitation, trying to squeeze in too many people and places and events, taking on too many projects.
I want to feel productive, not rushed. They are so different. I want to have a morning ritual and not have it feel like something I have to check off my To-Do list. The same for yoga and writing in my journal and taking slow walks.
But they all start to feel like obligatory goals because I am trying to pack in too many things for the sake of others, for the sake of being busy during this beautiful weather.
I have a feeling I am not alone in my "Summer Sickness." I have a feeling that a lot of people suffer from this sickness year round. Not being able to differentiate between what matters to them and what doesn't really matter at all.
What are some of the things you are doing and wish you weren't?
What do you put on the back burner that really needs to have its place front and center in your life?
Do you have any daily rituals or tricks or reminders that keep you on the path of your bliss?