As I am writing this, I am listening to Pandora and the band that is playing? The Pimps of Joytime. I think that is just right.
I am 41 today, and yet, I have never felt younger, more alive, more vital, more excited.
Last year, when I turned 40, I was a bit traumatized. I wasn't quite sure what to make of this aging thing because I was not yet fully living.
Within a few months of my 40th, we lost a very special and dear friend, and shortly after, we went to the Wedding That Changed My Life, the wedding where my heart reached to the sky and blossomed like those cosmos in the picture above. The wedding where I danced and twirled back into my own body, back into my own essence, right back into my Purpose.
There are moments when I think, "What if I hadn't gone? What if I had canceled like I was tempted? What if the Sad we were feeling had stopped us from experiencing that moment?"
I can feel my heart flutter in my chest when I think like that, and I remind myself that there is no point to those thoughts, that I did go to the wedding, that I did get myself back, and I say a little prayer of thanks to the Universe for this Ultimate Gift of ReBirth.
So really, today is my ReBirthday. I am in my First Year of my Bliss Life.
If it sounds like a conversion experience to you, that's because it totally feels like one.
When I got back from Kripalu and my teacher training, I wrote that I didn't know if I could ever really express what happened there, and I still can't, but that's as close as words can get -- I was converted.
I was converted from Depressed to Happy. I was converted from Shadow to Real. I was converted from Sideline to Center Stage.
All of this had been happening inside of me already -- you know, like the phrase "overnight success." There really is no such thing. There is always this long and difficult path behind the overnight that you just don't see. The process had started for me years ago, but it was going away and Being Seen that acted as the Final and Necessary Alchemy.
From coal to Diamond -- in a Snap! A big, shiny Diamond of Hope, at that.
Anything is Possible.