I go back to Kripalu for the second part of my YogaDance teacher training in just two and a half weeks! Since I've returned from the first part, I have been on a bit of a roller coaster ride, to put it mildly.
I keep reminding myself that all change can be difficult -- even good change.
As is my nature, though, I have been fighting this, so Jamie's Wishcasting question today is perfect:
What do you wish to embrace?
I wish to embrace this journey, fully.
I wish to completely understand that I am not just growing and becoming when I am on schedule and feeling great and dancing my heart out, but that I am also growing and becoming when I am exhausted, when I doubt, when I don't feel like it any more.
When I don't embrace these parts of the journey, I resist them and then I judge myself for them.
Rather than just accepting, for example, that there will be moments when I lose sight of what I am doing, I tell myself that I am not dedicated enough or that I am in danger of quitting completely.
Yep. That really helps!
If I embrace all these parts, I can see that this is my old brain, my fearful brain that worries I might fail, and it's also the part of my heart that wants to protect me from disappointment.
To be really truthful, it's also just old, lazy patterns. Those patterns that thought it was easier and safer to stay in the status quo. Those patterns that were comfortable but were not challenging or stimulating me to be the Shiniest version of myself.
Do you expect good change to be easy and comfortable? Are you willing to embrace pain and difficulty to birth your beautiful dreams?
(Photo & Text Copyright: Christine C. Reed, blisschick.net, 2009)