Thursday, November 12, 2009
Perfect & Infinite, We each Are
My particular bliss path of dance and writing excites me on a daily basis. Since I've returned to dance, I am never understimulated or without ideas. I am overflowing with ideas, actually, and I wish I had a few more hours in the day, though the thought of that also exhausts me!
Excitement and stimulation aside, I am also met with daily struggles.
Which is the point, right? I've said this a million times -- being a blisschick is about the daily choices we make and this is hard. Most people don't really want to take this kind of responsibility for their lives or they are stuck in self-defeating patterns that they are blind to or...well, there are a million reasons why most people don't see their lives as something they are in charge of.
Right now, my main struggles are centered around a lot of those "shoulds" that haunt most of us.
I think my body should be changing faster.
I think I should be dancing more hours a day than I do.
I think I should still be reading multiple books a week.
I think I should write in my paper journal a whole lot more.
I think I should be eating better, drinking more water, taking my vitamins.
This list could go on and on and it gets ridiculous with minutiae pretty quickly (as evidenced by "taking my vitamins").
None of this "should" thinking, though, fits in with the person I know I am when I am dancing. The person who is already right where she needs to be; the person who does enough; the person who is enough.
See...this is the main clue that dancing is my central thing -- the fact that I feel like the perfect and infinite being that I am while I am doing it. And yes, this feeling has started to leak out past the boundaries of those moments of dance, and I feel that way for more of my day than ever in my life.
How about you?
When in your life do you feel like the perfect and infinite being you are? What are you doing when that happens?
And please, none of this "we should feel this while we are just being; it shouldn't be reliant on some doing..." We are spiritual beings, yes, but we have physical form in order to have a physical experience of life.
It is through physical experience that we touch our spirits. It's simply how we are made.
I think we get stuck in this line of thinking about "just being," and we use it to denigrate ourselves, to judge ourselves. We get mired in it.
When really, we are made, built, meant to have fun, to experience happiness.
So, again, what are you doing when you feel utterly in your center?
(Photo and text copyright: Christine C. Reed, blisschick.net, 2009)