Thursday, December 31, 2009
How to Overcome Brain Induced Lethargy
Yesterday, I was having a difficult time. There are reasons for this, yes, but we all know by now that it's not the reasons but our reactions to those reasons that create anxiety or lethargy or apathy or whatever particular demon holds you back from the life you are meant to live.
I get a combo reaction that I am sure is common: my anxiety gets so bad that it paralyzes me into lethargy.
I can clearly see what it is I need to be doing in order to feel better.
I can also clearly see that I am avoiding that thing intentionally so as not to feel better.
Oh, Brain, the trouble you cause!
I sat on the couch going from Twitter to Facebook to Gmail and back again, feeling this battle being waged between Brain and Body. Watching the whole thing with a mix of disgust and amusement.
I mean, it is something, isn't it, that I can watch this, that I am aware of it, that my Witness is present?
Eventually, as I knew it would, Body won. I got up and put on some music and just began. Slowly. Not expecting anything but a little movement.
That lack of expectation always ends with joyful, boundless, fully embodied dancing.
I sweated. I worked. I focused. I lost myself. I lost My Self. The negative brain chatter ceased.
Things got quiet.
I found myself. I found My Self.
As I always do when I am doing what I am Meant to Do.
This is the point where it can get rather exciting. Brain gets out of the way and becomes the Organ of Dreams & Imaginings that it is meant to be.
All of the oxygen and joy changes the chemistry of Brain.
Brain started pumping out messages and ideas; it coordinated my limbs in new ways; it activated hormones.
Body and Brain, once again, became Team Bliss.
Are you able to watch your resistance? Are you then able to overcome it? Or do you give in? Why?
(Photo of Toby and Lilly playing with abandon.)