Monday, February 8, 2010
(We call photos like this "Senior Portraits." The posing!)
I've written very honestly about the fact that once I found dance again, yoga just started to totally bore me. Recently, I had a breakthrough with yoga that reminds me how everything changes. (I'm a bit on the slow side so I have to keep learning these same lessons over and over.)
I was on my mat doing some kundalini yoga. My favorite, as you may know. And it hit me, "This is what I do. I move."
That means nothing to you, but it meant the world to me and was a huge "ah-ha" moment.
It was my body finally getting the message to my brain that everything is dance. All movement is a form of dance.
Movement becomes dance when it is married to consciousness. When you are consciously moving, you are dancing.
I had gotten into a rut with yoga, and so when I stepped on the mat, I lost consciousness. I was just going through the routine. Yoga had become a "should." Yoga was just one more thing to cross off my to-do list, and thus it was good that I just stopped for a while. I put away my mat and the DVD's.
Being dramatic as I tend to be (cough), I thought, "That's it. No more yoga for me. EVER AGAIN!"
Luckily, my DivaChick didn't know what she was talking about. Luckily, I was made to do yoga again at my YogaDance teacher training. And luckily, yes, I said LUCKILY, I put it back on my list of shoulds.
What?! You read that right. Sometimes it's okay to push ourselves, it's okay to make ourselves do something we don't think we want to do. Because lots of times, those shoulds end up being good for us in ways we can't imagine. Sometimes those shoulds turn right into our wants.
Ravi Singh said it best on one of the DVDs I was doing a couple of days ago, "No test, no progress." I love his play on that old and awful "no pain, no gain." Ravi got it right.
Sometimes we have to push because lots of times...we're lazy. I know I can be and being honest about that is just the kick in the ass I need.