Friday, February 26, 2010
Walking Your Bliss Path Sometimes Means Walking Away
(Daydreaming of summertime lake and sky...)
This past year has been full of learning about myself. Really, the things I've learned probably look so basic from the outside that one might wonder if I had ever met myself.
One thing I have come to discover -- or recover or uncover -- is my nature as an Introvert. Coming to know this part of myself and coming to accept it has greatly impacted the quality of my life. I no longer judge my need for downtime. I understand why conversations about trivial matters annoy the hell out of me. I now know how and where I get energy and how and where I lose it.
Which brings me to making really hard choices about how I use my time.
Now that I have come back to dance, I spend a lot more time around other people, but this does not suck away my energy like it normally would, and that's because I'm not around people talking and asking and talking some more. We are dancing. There is music. There are steps to focus on. All of this increases my energy, and for some time now, it has been impacting my level of creativity in other genres as well. The more I dance, for example, the more I find myself writing.
The more I dance, the more book ideas keep flying at me so fast I need a butterfly net to catch them.
I have found that my time has become precious in a new way. I don't have time any more to need time to come down from social interactions. Did you get that sentence? I need that time to dance and to write.
Looking at my life, I have known for some weeks that I have to make some cuts. This has been super difficult for me to admit and for me to make decisions around.
Wait. I just lied.
It has been super difficult to admit, that is true, but I lied when I said it was hard to make the decisions that needed to be made. That part was really easy.
My Dancing Life comes first. Period. It is only second in relation to Marcy and our little family.
What was really hard was telling some very dear people that this or that was being cut. Who wants to disappoint people they care about?
But I did it. I said what I needed to say. I stayed true to my Passion and Purpose, to this Bliss Path. It was not easy, but I did it.
(Our good friend, Christiana, also just wrote about the difficulty of walking her bliss path.)