Friday, April 9, 2010
All Parts of This Life Are Changing...
(One of my favorites of Marcy's newest work. The story cracks me up!)
It takes my breath away when I think about how quickly and completely my life has changed. I will catch myself (or more accurately, Marcy will catch me) thinking that things are moving too slowly, that I haven't accomplished "enough" yet, that I am not "successful." Typical thoughts in this cultural environment in which I find myself.
But...there is this HUGE but...I only started dancing again last July. And really, when I look at the big picture honestly, I only completely committed to this new (old) path some time in October. Barely six months ago.
What? When I tell the true story of it, I can have moments of feeling pretty darn amazed by what has happened to me. I can even go so far as to give myself a little credit.
Right now, all of this change is leaking all over our lives, and I find myself reevaluating everything.
Including something that I didn't expect. There should be drum rolls here, and if you've been reading blisschick for long, you'll know why in a sec...
Yes, I have actually....(dramatic pause)...or we, I should say, have actually been contemplating getting...a car.
There. I said it. A car.
We've been car free (and very intentionally) for almost 9 years now. NINE years. We rent occasionally; we accept offered rides in bad weather. But for the most part, for nine years, we've been committed to walking, biking, and public transportation.
It has changed our lives in too many amazing ways to mention here. We could write a book about the unexpected impacts.
But now...we are re-thinking how a car would expand my teaching opportunities. It would make it easier for me to go to trainings and workshops.
Yet there are an equal number of reasons why the answer should be No. How fast would we be back to the car-reliant ways of most Americans? How fast would we become part of that tribe called the "Busy's?" How soon would we notice a loss of contemplative discernment about how we utilize resources, including our time and personal energy?
I'm completely flummoxed about this. From hour to hour, I am confident that Yes is correct, and then the next hour, I am back to a steadfast No.
Sigh. Writing this has brought me no closer to a final decision.
I will just keep dancing on it and see what happens.