Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Symbolic Acts & Piles o' Hair
I've written rather recently about how I use tactile notes to remember things. For example, I have a necklace that I wear almost every day that reminds me of something essential. The first time I put it on, I said that something essential out loud and told myself that I would recall it with each subsequent fastening.
This works for me. The use of a talisman and the performance of symbolic acts are all part of my "religious" nature. Yep. I have one of those. I like ritual. Metaphor floats my boat. And like I said, a talisman here and there (and over there and more under here)...it works for this heart and soul.
Cutting my hair yesterday seemed like it was about freeing myself from the heat and weight and sweat of all those very long and heavy tresses, but it turns out, it was about a whole lot more. Or, at the very least, I have figured out how to make it about more! HA!
Imbuing things with meaning is a human instinct, right? I mean, think of all the original Gods. They were just our attempt to explain things like lightening.
Back to my hair...
As it was being cut, it felt natural. It felt "original," if that makes sense.
Good, right? I didn't cry. Which I kinda worried about.
Then I stood up from that chair, and immediately, I felt something wonderful stirring.
By the time I got home, I was downright giddy, excited, energized, hyper.
Here is what I've decided:
My new hair is about strength and confidence and NO FEAR.
That's right. No Fear. My hair is like the opposite of Samson's -- cutting it has given me my strength rather than taken it away.
Every time I look in the mirror now, I am going to remind myself of that -- I am strong and fearless because my hair is my Note and it says so.