Tuesday, July 27, 2010
The Light That Dispels All Sorrow
At one point over the last many days, I was feeling especially...negative about the possibility of healing, even in light of the new, more accurate, and more hopeful diagnosis of Complex-PTSD. I wrote about feeling frustrated about the concept of a pre-trauma self.
Svasti and I had some interesting back and forth in the comments of that post, if you've not seen it. I was getting additionally frustrated with her take* on it, feeling very stuck in my "what if I can't heal?" panic.
(*Svasti knows she is someone whom I greatly admire. She is one of the kindest, wisest bloggers out there, so don't mistake my frustration for anything about her!)
During all of that, a facebook email came to me from a yoga sutras group, and it reinforced what others were trying to help me to see.
This particular sutra is the Light that dispels all sorrow. It's about yoga and how it connects us to our essential, bigger-than-this-life selves.
You can replace "yoga" with whatever you big bliss is, and for me, of course, that would be dance.
When the email came, just like Svasti's comments, I wasn't ready for it, but I knew it was important because I starred it and kept it in my inbox. I kept opening it and reading it.
Finally, I opened it, read it, and smiled.
The smile came thanks to something really vital I re-membered about myself late last week and which I will write about tomorrow.
What in your life dispels the darkness when it descends?