Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Give Me A Break



I need a break. Quite uncharacteristically, I'm giving myself one.  I've never done this in the approximately 28 months I've been blogging.  I was proud of that fact, but now other things need to take priority.

I'll be back.

Things are just extra hard...

I did not realize how much of my experience I was not feeling, and now that I am feeling it and noticing it, I am overwhelmed by and flooded with fears on a regular basis.  Welcome to awareness of Complex-PTSD.

I can't write a blog called BlissChick when I am feeling predominately like SadChick right now.

24 comments:

sweetmango said...

You are in my thoughts and in my heart while you walk at your own pace through all of this.
You are loved.
When you are ready, we will be ready.
xx
<3
Michelle
~*~

Rebekah said...

Take care of you. We, the readers, will still be here when you get back.

((Hugs)) & lit candles. You'll be in my thoughts.

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Take the time you need! All will be well.

Svasti said...

*hugs*

Take it easy. And take all the time you need. I know exactly how hard things can get in PTSD-land. Just make sure you keep on breathing and doing all the other "medicine" things you need to do.

And remember, as much as it hurts, getting all the feeling back is a GOOD thing. xo

Lori-Lyn said...

Take the time you need.
You are loved.

just me said...

Sending you blessings of peace and love.

sinnersavesyou said...

And now you can feel PROUD about taking the BREAK that your body and soul need :-)

You know we'll still be here. Take your time.

Kristina said...

Breaks are good, especially when you give them to yourself. My thoughts are with you - see you when you're back, chica.

Brooks Hall said...

Feel better, friend!!

Karen D said...

Take good care

Em said...

Hang on through all this, Christine. Take the time you need to take to walk this walk. I hold good thoughts for you.

Ellen said...

Take care Christine. Healing wishes to you.

Heather Plett said...

Blessings to you, dear friend. We'll be right here waiting for you when you come back, and right here praying and thinking of you while you're gone.

Linnea said...

The body never lies ...

Enjoy your rest, and know blessings and love come to you from this house.

Laurina said...

Expressing the same as all others. We'll wait patiently in understanding ... hang in there! Much love....

Susann said...

I am in awe of your resiliency & honesty, Christine, & in your fierce & loving dedication to self-care & healing. Know you're loved & greatly appreciated & that you have many, many folk Out Here who are holding you in their thoughts. Go gently, and let it take as long as it takes. We'll be here when you come back.

Carolyn said...

Lots of hugs, darling. Good for you for giving yourself a much-needed break. We'll be here when you return. xoxoxoxo

Rowena said...

Don't feel bad about feeling sad. Sometimes I think that in order to feel the high parts of life, we have to experience the lows, too. We have to LET ourselves feel the dark parts.

Take care of yourself. Don't think that anything about your process should be anything else than what it is.

Ride the wave.

Anonymous said...

No worries. Take all the time you need. I'll be praying for you.

Tess said...

You clearly deserve and need this break. Transatlantic hugs to you.

nomad said...

Dearest Sad Chick,

Life happens in cycles, happy times and sad times. While happy times are a lot more fun, sad times are good too. They are very important.

I am sorry that you are suffering right now, even though I know that suffering brings deeper growth.

You have had a strong impact on me, I am thankful for you. I wish you a good rest with meaningful, private, introspection.

You can hear God in the dark spaces.

Enjoy, my friend.

mercer said...

dear StrongChick. Breaks are warranted. I went through trauma when I was a child. It was in the form of 3 surgeries before by the age of 12. Now that might seem like peanuts compared to other trauma, but I shelved that shit for 23 years. It manifested in depression and anxiety in my 20's and after much thought, I came to the conclusion that I had been running away from myself for oh, about 23 years. When I stopped medication and SAT in it and felt it, and walked through it, I came out the other side a whole other person...let me put it another way. I became the person I was meant to be.

rock on

Kate T.W. said...

For the record...I am sure that I would greatly appreciate reading Sad Chick. Breaks are good and necessary, and there is always treasure in those depths to return with...

Jaliya said...

Bless you and may your time away from blogging be one of ease and peace ... I'm thinking of doing the same for a while. Brain's so scattered ... I need to "pull myself in" a bit ...

You're still our BlissChick and always will be. You're Christine, all of Christine, first of all ... and I'm so glad to read that you're *feeling* ... Even if the feelings are partially painful ones, they will flow if you allow them to ... and the difficulty will pass. SadChick is part of you too ... and I know how armoured our feelings of sadness can be ...

Much love to you xoxox