|Toby in Ukulele Box (from one of Marcy's Bday presents)|
Yesterday was the beginning of the Lenten season.
I go to the Cathedral here in Erie, a large, amazing, stone block structure. But during Mass, the winds were so strong that the building was being played like some out of tune instrument. Even in that building that feels like it has risen from the earth, I felt worried and anxious.
"Be Free from all Anxiety..."
Umm...nope. Haven't quite gotten to that level of trust yet.
I went to Ash Wednesday Mass thinking that I wasn't going to "give up" anything for Lent, per say, but that I would just mindfully and closely follow the season and see what happened. I had a guide at the ready. I was set! GO!
But as often happens in Mass, I got some clarity about my approach.
There is nothing wrong with just following along closely and being more mindful day to day.
But I most certainly do have something that I need to work on giving up and this 40 days before Holy Week is just the time.
As this wind blows away the Winter and blows in the Spring, I too have things to release so that other things might grow.
For Lent, I am giving up mistrust.
You heard me.
It's not supposed to be easy. Sugar is easy. Mistrust. Not so much.
HOW will I do this? By watching for and then routing out those impulses that tell me, Oh, NO! Something Bad will happen! Oh, No, everything can't be okay, right?
This Lent, I will attempt to release my basic sin -- as in Aquinas' view of sin, meaning that which blocks us from love or that which is misdirected love.
Mistrust has held me back from fully embracing and giving myself over to all that I claim to love.
Time to say buh-bye.
If a strong wind could blow away something that you no longer need, what would it be?