Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Find Your Damn Big Girl Pants (she says to herself)
On the kundalini yoga video by Gurmukh, there is one part that always makes me laugh, and I quote her often when I am teaching. There is this posture where you are seated and basically doing these big giant beautiful bird wings, and when you first learn this posture, it can create spontaneous cursing. It is hard. Your arms feel like bags of wet cement. That does not go away over the years. There are always days when this pose is hard, but there are days when it starts to feel effortless and that is why we practice.
Anyway, during this posture/movement, Gurmukh, says, basically, if you feel like stopping, don't!
When I say this in a class, it makes students laugh. They don't expect it. Yoga classes are so often about "being kind to your body and listening to its messages," and here I am telling you, "Right now? In this pose? POWER THROUGH and quit your whining!"
Am I a military drill sargent or what? ((giggle))
No. But I am a proponent of utilizing this gift of will power that we have all been given. I am a proponent of pulling on your Big Girl Pants and Getting the Job Done. I am not soft in person. I am not soft when I teach. I pull your courage out of you no matter your resistance. That is my job. I am not going to let you get away with less than your best or your strongest.
(I sound all growly there, and I am, but I am also not. My students trust me or this wouldn't work.)
Okay...like, that is so totally how I teach other people, but then I am this total softy wimp when it comes to myself.
Physician heal thyself and all of that. This is human, of course. I mean, most of us are better at seeing the way out for others. When it comes to ourselves, we tend to not notice the light switch resting under our hand in the dark room.
I know how to feel better. I know how to get better sleep. I know what I need to do every single day.
That doesn't mean I do it. It doesn't mean when I do do it that I am not kicking and screaming.
Where are your Big Girl Pants? Are you willing to pull them on or do you act like they are lost?