(A frog on a turtle at one of our favorite places)
Literally. Medicines make me sick. Long, long ago, when I very first met that sweet frog in the above photo, we thought we should do things the way other people do them, and so when my depression and anxiety seemed too big for me or us to handle, I went to the doctor, said the right things, and got my prescriptions.
Which made me immediately and profoundly ill, including by increasing my never-before-so-physically-expressed-inclination-to-hurt-myself.
That sweet and oh-so-wise frog got rid of those pills post-haste and proclaimed, "We will figure this out ourselves, no matter how long it takes..."
And it's not been easy. Pills can seem easy, and they numb you, so they can even feel easy, but I've yet to meet one single person who has been "made better" by them. I've yet to meet one single person, who, really, has any improvement beyond the numbing, which, when you feel so badly, certainly can feel like an improvement of sorts.
(*Though I should not have to note this, I will: I am not referring to extreme psychiatric illness wherein the patient is actually a possible harm to themselves or others. End of the obvious...)
Fast forward 17 years and we have done it ourselves. It has been damn hard, but it has been honest. It has been real. It has been my own journey and not some side-effect riddled, pharmaceutical induced, big money (not)joy ride.
This is all to explain why I get so freaking furious when I read about all the damage these damn drugs are doing to people. Besides NOT helping, oh, wow, they are actually HURTING.
It is evil. There is no other word. And it is evil, because these companies have been fully aware of what they have been up to.
I think of all the people out there who were not lucky enough to meet a sweet frog. All the people who were not lucky enough to be made immediately ill by these pills. All the people out there unlucky enough to feel just that tiny bit better which has kept them hoping, well, maybe the next drug will be the one...
Guess what? It won't be. Because it's all fraud from the ground up.
LOVE IS THE CURE.
And all the people out there who are relatively well? You remember that, too -- LOVE IS THE CURE.
Give it away for free, ya know?
And read stuff like this so we can all stay angry enough to love each other better.