Thursday, September 1, 2011
A Week of Firsts, Fears, & Freaking Fun
If it weren't for the fact that a lot of the "firsts" of this week had to do with relaxation, I would be one overwrought, freaking-out introvert!
Somehow...this week fell into place in the weirdest way.
I visited my dear friend, as I already wrote about, and she, unbeknownst to me, scheduled us for pedicures. Which I have never had. (And those are my tootsies up there enjoying the warm soak.)
I can get pretty freaked out about people...touching me so this was one for pushing buttons and boundaries (more to come of those!), and yet I am at a place in my life where I know that boundary pushing is not only good for me but tends to turn out Great!
Which this did. It was amazing. I wanted everyone to just shut up and not speak, because my feet were in HEAVEN and they wanted the rest of me to join them. Wow. This seems like such a super awesome bit of self-care for a dancer or movement educator since we ask so much of our feet.
Then I got home and the very next day, I had a full body, real-deal massage. Again, TOUCHING! ((startled face inserted here))
And it, too, was amazing, and I am so thankful that I now see Fear as a Guide so that I know when Fear rears its ugly head, I should either talk to it or chop it off. Either way, I should not ignore it or run the other way.
I then had a meeting with two wonderful women that pertains to my new studio space coming in October, and THAT went so well. I felt super BIG. Like a total adult in ways I have never felt.
Continuing with the TOUCHING theme...yesterday, I experienced Thai Yoga, which is, I think, quite possibly my new FAVE. (If you live in Erie, I highly recommend these women and they are running a special right now.)
And now...DRUM ROLL...the biggest FIRST of all...
Tomorrow evening, I go to sign my lease for my studio space. I could VOMIT. Really. I am this sickening awesome mix of totally fearful and completely excited.
Wanting to vomit with fear and excitement!? I think that means I am on the right path!